I am a 21 year old, 6'1 university student in the UK. I have read TRP for the last year and a half and I can't shake this accrued feeling of complete disillusionment. It's not a temporary thing, its presence coincides with finding TRP. I cannot shake this feeling of utter sickness and disgust with the world.
When I first read TRP and added some of its accoutrements to my life, it worked wonders. I was more respected, I had sex with more girls and more frequently and I got in great shape. Now, I can't help but feel utter despair at the way the world is constructed- particularly the actions of women.
There is this inescapable, residual disgust for women. Their transparency and their almost sociopathic tendencies. I was in an LTR for nearly 9 months and I had her complete respect and got sex whenever I wanted. But I couldn't connect in any meaningful way with her. The mystery was gone- every action was expected, her failed dread just made me sick, her tears, her withholding affection, her petty shit tests-- they didn't even phase me, they just made me disgusted.
I cannot understand why the world is like this- why everyone wants to control others. Why the nicest lads get cheated on. And why the girls delight with this eerie glee when the boyfriends beg for them back.
I have had so many girls crave my commitment. Throw their hands on me. Hold me. And I just can't help but feel this tangible repulsion for them. I am wildly attracted to them naturally but their behaviour genuinely makes me sick to the stomach- so much to the point where sometimes I cannot sleep and wake up with this sense of dislocation.
I am in the best shape of my life, I have women throwing themselves at me, I have great career prospects, but all I want to do is.. Walk away. I am just not happy. And I was happy before I knew what the TRP teaches. The truth is perhaps not worth it.