I was born with a birth defect that prevents my pituitary gland from generate any growth hormones or testosterone.
So to grow beyond the size of a baby, I have had to take shots/medication for most my life, from age 5 to now going onto 53 years of living.
My parents and younger brothers are all doctors, highly successful people, and I'm the not so much of anything.
I was told at a young age I would never be able to have kids, most women barely notice that I'm alive.
At age 53, I am taking my testosterone and thyroid medication, but most days, I am just very low energy.
A few months ago, I went to a personal trainer, and my energy level and fitness started to get a little better, but it was way too expensive for me to do for any length of time, especially since I'm unemployed.
I've always had this feeling I'm only alive waiting for the right moment to die, because I couldn't possibly expect any happiness or success in my life.
I've been in therapy many times, and while it helps me get a little better, my overall energy level is always very low.
I live in my own home, supported by my parents, because I just have no dreams, no drive.
I want something more from my life, and I hate being handicapped.
I hate that everytime I go to a restuarant I am mistaken for being female, when I'm not.
I hate being so different with my ear / jaw disformity that I am sure I scare people away.
Women have made it clear they are not attracted to me.
So wtf is a guy supposed to do?
Just wait till I get motivated enough to kill myself?
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