How I was before I started: Depressed, suicidal, ugly, fat, out of shape, very socially anxious and awkward, prone to angry outbursts, negative thoughts and self beliefs, 0 confidence. Afraid to talk to people esp women. Prone to saying really cringy things even tho It wasn't my intention. No social calibration. Self destructive behavior and cynicism and misanthropy.
What I did:
For 2 months, I went into this version of monk mode:
I quit smoking cigarettes cold turkey after 20+ years (I was up to 2 packs a day) I quit alcohol,(I was getting buzzed every day, 3 + drinks) caffeine, sugar, and stopped PMO for the first time since I started at age 11 (I have been jerking off almost daily, mostly to porn, for 27 years). I drank only water and ate only meat, vegetables, fruit, brown starches, and protein powder. I lifted every day on a 3 day split, upper body split into 2 days and lower body on the 3rd. I meditated twice daily, 20 mins when I woke up and 20 minutes again before sleep.
The effects: Nicotine fits. I give mindfulness meditation 100% credit for helping me through this. I was prepared for my brain to come up with any reason it could why I should have just one more cigarette, I kept telling it no. It finally gave up after 2 weeks. I started looking like myself again, my natural color came back and I looked good and hydrated. This instantly boosted my confidence because I had forgotten I'm a pretty handsome dude. Muscle soreness and exhaustion. Started sleeping like a baby. Intense horniness. Started to feel the muscle come in a little and it felt amazing. Like I was Jason Statham even tho I still had the fat dad bod. Emotional detachment and equanimity. Aloofness but still warm and friendly to everyone. I noticed I wasn't getting mad or worried or stressed as easily. I stopped hating on people. Started feeling a low level euphoria all the time. Must be what everyone calls a natural high. Social anxiety started to go away, I stopped caring what other people were thinking. My natural flirting abilities with women (I haven't had since high school) came back and my self consciousness faded away. I started talking to women with a cockiness. An "old dirty bastard" vibe. Realized its not only ok to be bad and mischievous with women, that they absolutely love it. Its exactly what they want. Started getting real smiles and laughter from women everywhere I went. Used these as positive reference experiences which boosted my confidence even further. Eventually turned into completely unstifled fearlessness. Able to be my natural self around everyone. Started to fall in love with my looks and develop a healthy amount of narcissism. Able to look everyone in the eye without averting my gaze out of anxiety. Body started to take shape even more. Other dudes nod in respect more often. Started looking more masculine than I ever have. Beard started growing in thicker. Ive given 5 women my phone number after flirting a few times and currenty talking to 3 of them. One is 5 years younger than me and married and wants to cheat on hubby with me. Sends me nudes. I really don't want to go that route. One is 12 years younger than me and says I'm a hot old man and the age difference turns her on. She sucked my dick in her car yesterday in a shopping center parking lot after she got off work. One is about my age and I think she's already in love because she texts me every 5 minutes all day every day. Banged her twice already. These are not exaggerations. Not posting this to pump myself up. I will never know any of you in real life so why would I care what you think. But If I can light a fire under one guy's ass who reads this and inspire him to change his life, mission accomplished. It is not placebo. These are all objectively noticable if not measurable effects I have experienced within the span of 60 days. And none would have happened if I hadn't decided to get off my ass and change my life. My brain tried to bitch out every step of the way. I wouldn't give into it. 2 months in and I've decided to stay in monk mode indefinitely as the benefits are too profound and life changing for me to quit. I'm not getting any younger and there is too much pussy out there and I need to make up for lost time.