20 year old virgin here.
I gave up porn a while back. Over a year ago. I maybe have masturbated to it a few times in that time frame, but again a few times. Maybe like 3-5 times. In over a year. So I’ve taken it pretty serious.
As for not masturbating, I don’t take it serious. I just don’t masturbate as often. Used to do it a few times a week. But now I go weeks without doing. I think I’ve gone almost a month as of right. Before that I went nearly two months. You get the point.
On top of that, I’ve been lifting for 4 weeks, so I feel like because of the increase of testosterone, it’s given a slight kick in my sex drive.
Point I’m trying to make: I’m horny as fuck these. Like beyond horny. And BEYOND desperate for sex.
What thing that sucks (or actually, I think it’s a great thing) about given up porn is that I began to to appreciate women’s body in real life MUCH MORE. And my sex. fantasies become much more detailed/emotional. Like with porn, I would just think banging a chick aggressively or something. Sucking on her tits, or smacking on her ass real hard. Simple stuff.
But since I’ve given porn, my fantasies are more romantic. I think about the excitement of undressing her. The sight of her in her lingerie. I think about kissing her back/stomach/thighs/neck. I think about the natural imperfections (stretch mark/cellulite) that make her look perfect and natural. I think about caressing her hair, her back, her face. I think about the cuddling. The tasting. The light kissing. The forehead kissing. The intimate talking. The overall I intimacy.
And I crave all that so much. And They say women have a sixth sense when it comes to a guy whose desperate. And that’s pretty much what I am.
I can’t get laid right now. I have a nonexistent SMV. (Really Ugly, no social circle, mediocre social skills, etc.) be a while before I get a decent body from lifting.
What do I do?