Maybe some of you remember This thread After month of no contact, I get a phone call today from an unrecognized number, i decided to pickup and voila, i recognized the voice. it was my EX, She asked me how i was doing, If i missed her and missed the old things, I replied with a single and symbol word No. And i'm busy right now,please don't contact me again. She started crying on the phone, Yes Sure i felt pretty guilty and mean but i tried to keep myself together, she started to beg me:
Can we please start over i really miss you
No we cannot start over. You wanted to be single and get more experience and do not contact me again.
Then i received a text messaged from her:
Hey darling, Please read this you want to read this you know i love you more then everything..... Then i stopped reading and deleted it. It was a lot more than just those words but i just couldn't read it.
Right now i feel like a piece of crap hearing her voice again, I'm trying to keep myself busy from not calling back and tell her to come over.
This past month i've been decent busy, I'm hitting the gym, flirting with girls, Trying to read but my ADD is holding me back at that. I've been suffering depression like having hard time getting shit done, like the gym and my friends. But i go to the gym 5-6 times a week, sometimes 2x a day if i'm feeling very down, right now i'm not at work because summer vacation. But i got pretty good friends both girls and guys that have been talking to me daily and doing something with me. But i'm trying to also learn to be alone.
My words to you all: This i way harder than i ever imaged, I've been wanting so much to contact her but it's been less lately but until she called. But still i wont!