I've always had trouble dealing with girls' pasts. Everytime a girl and I get closer and she starts telling me about her history, I can't help but reflexively judge her as a slut. Especially for any one-night stands or cases where she "gave everything" to a guy who just fucked her for a few months. Or when she just gave it up on the first night.
The extreme hypocrisy here is that she fucked me on our first date, she is willing to give everything up for me by this point, the other day she told me she loves me and if you compare her history with mine, mine is a whole lot more scandalous.
Still, I cannot help it. It's almost like I get mad at her for her "bad choices". Almost as if she "did it to me"... it almost feels like cheating? How strange is that. This is probably not a healthy way of viewing it but at the moment I'm just honest - I can't help myself.
Do I have any right to feel this way?
Where is the error in my thinking and what is the correct mindset to have?
Really appreciate any help, I'm suffering under my own mind at the moment.