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[UPDATE]: "Beta virgin here. I lied about my SMV and now 3 girls want to sleep with me tomorrow morning. I'm confused and need help fast." (self.asktrp)

submitted by Throwawayblue1414

Original post: http://www.reddit.com/r/asktrp/comments/2qhstb/beta_virgin_here_i_lied_about_my_smv_and_now_3/


Hey guys, some of you asked for an update and I thought I should deliver. There are a lot of thoughts going through my head right now, and I'll try to write them out. If you are not interested in the musings of a beta, you need not read this, because it is long.

So throughout the day Saturday, I was supposed to sleep with 3 women. Friday night, however, I couldn't sleep because of my confusion and nervousness - not really about the sex I think, but about whether it was morally wrong and if I would get caught. You can see me responding to comments in the old thread all the way through Saturday early morning. So, I ended up texting all of them to reschedule, and decided it would be better to meet one on Sunday, one on Monday, and so on. I figured I'd have more time to think about it.

I just got back from having sex with the first girl.

Why did I do it? There was some division in the comments of the other post (some people saying you shouldn't, it's unethical, and others were saying that I should). In the end, I know it was wrong, morally, but I started thinking of all the cruel things that women had done to me in my life, and I didn't care if it was morally wrong anymore. I wanted to win. I don't think I need to go over details of what happened to me in the past, but I do believe inside every red piller is a blue piller who got his heart broken and slapped with a large dose of reality, and I am no different.

Note: I did everything humanely possible to shield myself from false rape accusations. I got explicit consent confirming texts before and after sex, a video of her smiling and then going down on me, and a video of the final cumshot, which she swallowed. She was ok with me taking videos.

After she left, I sat there in the motel for a good amount of time thinking. The sheer amount of manipulation that I did made me feel a little sick. I suppose this is selfish of me, but I wasn't really thinking of her - I was thinking of how doing this would affect me. Like I mentioned in the other thread, I still believed deep down I would find what you call a unicorn, and I could completely honest with her, about everything. I'm pretty sure I can't tell this to anyone, ever.

To be completely honest, the sex itself just wasn't THAT good. I know some of you will say, "well that's because you manipulated and lied your way into it you son of a bitch". But I really feel like it would have felt about the same, physically, had it been a regular hook up from a party, instead of the product of my immorality. You know what I started thinking while I sat there? That was it? That's hyped up way more than it should be...I've been doing so many things in life (starting eating healthy, dressing well, even my hopeful future career) all with the goal in the back of my mind, to get women. I realized I needed to refocus my purpose.

I sat a while longer and started having some sort of moment of clarity, where I realized The only thing that's limiting me from doing literally anything, is me. I've been working so hard to try to find a woman, because I need validation (?), or maybe because I've put them up on this pedestal (?). I could climb so high, working on myself, for me. I sat there thinking, I could see myself doing anything - becoming a successful businessman, surgeon, mountain climber, whatever I wanted. I finally understood what they mean when they say learn to be happy alone.

Some other notes:

  1. I forgot to practice putting on a condom like /u/GCOW30 suggested. So when the time came, I ordered her to do it for me. She seemed to think I was being dominant, which she liked.

  2. Speaking of dominant, /u/vandaalen probably gave me the advice that affected me most. I treated her like a slut and I didn't care what she thought of my performance. I did everything: face-fucking, gagging, slapping, hair pulling, holding her throat, rough doggystyle (at one point I pushed her face into the motel carpet while doing this), anal doggystyle while pulling her hair back so hard that she was looking at ceiling, even ass-to-mouth...(I did tell her a safe-word, just in case) The weirdest part? She loved it. She kept saying "harder" and was wet as a river. Flashback to my really blue pill days where I would be spending the night with the girl I loved (only handjobs/blowjobs, so I was still a virgin), and she was always dry as a desert...She tried to convince me that she had no idea why she was dry, and that she loved how "gentle" I was.

  3. Some questions for you guys (yes, this is embarrassing). So I have a pretty average sized dick I think (5.5 inches), but during sex it would keep slipping out. Why is this? Does it mean something? Does it get better with practice?

  4. Is it normal for men not to be able to cum from penetration? This went on for more than an hour*, and I was getting exhausted. At the end, I told her I would facefuck her until I came but after 15 minutes of that I still wasn't coming, so she just gave me a hand job. Is this due to my frequent masturbation? *Edit: that means from when she started blowing me, to when I came, with various positions of penetrative sex and oral in the middle.

  5. What's the deal with anal sex? They make it look like heaven in porn, but I actually didn't like it that much.

  6. I didn't give her an orgasm...was she expecting me to? I think I was pretty good at giving her oral sex, based on how she responded, but I only did that for like 5 minutes before getting tired. Honestly, the whole "treat her like a slut" thing just made me not care. I probably have to fix that right? Edit2(clarification): I'm referring to whether I need to fix the fact that I don't care about whether a hook-up orgasms or not.

There are still two more girls I'm supposed to see early this week. I'm about to tell them that I can't and forget this whole business. I think I've learned what I could, and honestly I don't have that much desire for sex for now. (although as I typed this one of them sent me a naked picture and dear god..she's a 9/10.)

I just want to end this post with a thought. I know I still probably haven't completely swallowed the pill, but intimacy really felt a lot better with my old girlfriend. Is this just because I loved her? Is the idea of the red pill that even though I loved her, and thus intimacy felt a lot better, she still did not love me in the way I thought she did? That they are incapable of the love we give them? But then wouldn't I want to fall in love again? Am I misunderstanding the mindset of red-pillers, when I say most don't seem like the type to "fall in love"?

TL;DR: Beta virgin is virgin no more, but probably still a beta. Would love for you guys to read my post (I know it's long) and comment on my thoughts.


[–][deleted] 139 points140 points  (3 children)

Mah nigga.

[–]prettylatebloomer 3 points4 points  (1 child)

Hahaha, reality is finally starting to really sink in for me, this story is too funny. Hamsters are silly, gotta love em

[–][deleted] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

gotta fuck em

FTFY

[–][deleted] 31 points32 points  (19 children)

Fucking congrats, man.

I'd honestly follow through with the other two girls just to destigmatise talking to and fucking girls. Even if the sex itself is lackluster, which it probably will be, the fact that you've had it will allow you to approach the subject more naturally. Experience is the best teacher.

There are three possible reasons for why you didn't get off: you were thinking too much about what you were doing, saying and psyched yourself out, you have death-grip, or she was just plain loose. That said, some positions are better for getting off than others; go hog-fucking-wild in doggy style and I can go from semi-boner to ejaculation in less than two minutes, though it's near impossible to get me off through a blowjob.

e: WRT Oral... unless you think that this might be a girl that you want to see again, I wouldn't worry about it. It's a good tool to have in your box for a girl who legitimately cannot orgasm from PiV, and if you're going on a marathon you want to be able to get her off once or twice before plowing her into the dirt, but do not go down on a one night stand, even just for your own safety.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (18 children)

By death grip you mean that I hold my dick too tightly when I masturbate?

I'd honestly follow through with the other two girls

I've thought about it. One thing I am worried about is if I get addicted to this whole facade. It was incredibly easy to get sex this way...I'm on vacation right now from school, and it just sucked away so much time.

[–][deleted] 3 points4 points  (5 children)

Go into depth about what happened from beggining to end. The history books must know.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 7 points8 points  (4 children)

You mean how I manipulated them? I don't want to give too many details for sake of anonymity. But, the general idea was I pretended to be the assistant to a big shot VIP, and if they hooked up with me, I could potentially hook them up with him.

[–][deleted] 5 points6 points  (3 children)

No I mean you told them to meet you. You met them. What happened? Tell the story bro.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 38 points39 points  (2 children)

Ok, /u/DAD_FISTER ...just for you.

We first met outside the motel room door (I texted her to wait there while I went to book it for the night). Went inside, sat on the bed, talked for a bit. If you saw my other post, the background was that I was supposed to vet these girls to make sure they're sexual superstars who are good enough for my VIP boss. So as we sat on the bed, I gave her a guideline of what I wanted her to test her on.

I realized a way I could get away (possibly) with no sex experience: I told her that when we first start having sex, I want you to be the dominant one. Take off my clothes, play with my dick, be on top, etc. I figured she could ease me into it this way. Afterwards, I told her the roles would flip and I would be dominant.

Then we just went at it. Started with a video for my boss, then her giving me a bj + hand job, plus some deep throat. Then I knew I should finger her or do oral. But then I realized I wasn't sure where the clit was exactly, so I told her to play with clit while she sucked me. I observed what she did and then copied her. Then I gave her oral, and after that she put on my condom, and then we went at it.

[–][deleted] 48 points49 points  (0 children)

I realized a way I could get away (possibly) with no sex experience: I told her that when we first start having sex, I want you to be the dominant one. Take off my clothes, play with my dick, be on top, etc. I figured she could ease me into it this way. Afterwards, I told her the roles would flip and I would be dominant.

I realized I wasn't sure where the clit was exactly, so I told her to play with clit while she sucked me.

Holy fucking shit dude you're like a combination Dexter and Bobby Fischer.

Good shit.

[–][deleted] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Dude you're pretty fucking bright. I'm incredibly impressed with your ability to improv under high pressure. You should be working in film lol

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (11 children)

Yeah, I mean that potentially you've desensitised your penis by using too tight a grip to masturbate.

Do you have an addictive personality? Have you had issues with drinking or gambling or whathaveyou? If not, don't worry about it. Fuck these girls that have offered themselves up on a platter.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 4 points5 points  (9 children)

I don't drink, gamble, or smoke, but sometimes I have to watch porn and masturbate 3-4 times a day.

[–]Fucty_Artsy 9 points10 points  (3 children)

Stop that. It teaches you to not need any self control. Limit it to one time a week. Sex will get better and you gonna be more confident.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 2 points3 points  (2 children)

Yeah. I already decided not to masturbate at all this week. Hoping to gain some self discipline.

[–]xwm 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Drop porn 100% if you need reasons why YouTube ted talks porn

[–]Azzmo 3 points4 points  (0 children)

/r/nofap might be something you'd benefit from.

This might not work itself out in a week. Many guys need a full half a year to reset their shit, since it's not just a problem with your dick but also potentially with your neurobiology.

[–]MrRIP 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you masturbate too frequently you lose feeling down there. A day or two of no fap you should be fine though. You gotta learn how to not overdo it.

[–]batfish55 0 points1 point  (2 children)

Whoa! Yea, that'll make it a little tougher for someone else to get you off. Also, you won't have any sexual tension built up anyway.

With regards to not finishing through penetrative sex, there's been plenty of times I couldn't finish because she was too dripping wet; I couldn't get any friction.

[–]GC0W30 1 point2 points  (1 child)

With regards to not finishing through penetrative sex, there's been plenty of times I couldn't finish because she was too dripping wet; I couldn't get any friction.

Batfish, I'm sure you don't need to be told this, so I'm answering for our [recently]-virgin friend. Chicks can just wipe to dry it out. I have my LTR do this from time to time when she's too wet for me to get any fucking friction and get off.

[–]batfish55 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea, that can usually work, but sometimes a chick is ridiculously wet.

And you can't wipe off too much lube or you're gonna tear her up, and that just ain't any fun.

It isn't common, but it's there. And if she really was as hot as he said, well, it's possible.

[–]AnarchyBurger101 1 point2 points  (0 children)

condom could be too tight as well. Some of the non-latex ones don't stretch worth a damn, and sometimes even the latex ones cut off the bloodflow. Proper sizing could be key, but not too loose, or your might end up with a baby daddy payload inside some hoochie mamma. :D

[–]VoyPerdiendo1 11 points12 points  (3 children)

You did anal? And this was your first time ever having sex? Wtf man, doesn't compute. Explain.

[–]ibuprofiend 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Post sounds fake.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 7 points8 points  (1 child)

Well I didn't like it anyway. Honestly, it smelled a bit. I'm pretty sure she farted while I was pounding her..

If you mean how, I just said "let's do anal". She looked a little surprised but we still did it.

[–][deleted] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yeah real anal isn't the same as porn anal. My girl definitely farted too when we did anal, but its a great reassurance to knowing you are alpha in a relationship when a girl willingly submits her butthole to your pleasure.

[–][deleted] 42 points43 points  (4 children)

Sorry boys, this is a humorous read but complete bullshit. It's like TRP fantasy porn. Kudos OP.

Virgin

face-fucking, gagging, slapping, hair pulling, holding her throat, rough doggystyle (at one point I pushed her face into the motel carpet while doing this), anal doggystyle while pulling her hair back so hard that she was looking at ceiling, even ass-to-mouth...

lol okay.

[–]Mardoo 2 points3 points  (0 children)

to be honest, I nearly did the same thing when I had my first time, but it was mostly missionary to keep the dick in properly.. was pretty hard at first, but with practice you can master everything ;)

it wasn't that hardcore though.. just some facefucking, titfucking, anal and choking/scratching, nothing too unusual though.. like I said, mostly normal frontal boring sex, and I also didn't cum.. which was weird.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 6 points7 points  (1 child)

The day The Red Pill just couldn't believe how a beta virgin lost his virginity.

Seriously though, I do find it a little humorous that people don't believe the story. I don't really care how some internet strangers think I lost my virginity. I posted this thread, and the other one, for advice - a lot of which I got. And I mean both sides of advice, even if I did not follow the other side (telling them the truth).

I was a virgin yes, but I had done blow jobs and deep throat before, so it wasn't completely new. And, like I said, the sex itself wasn't even that good.

Finally, I do have text messages and video proof, but I'm really hesitant about posting/spreading anything online that could come back to haunt me, especially for something like this. And again, I don't really care if people here believe this story is true, since I just wanted advice.

[–]waynebradysworld -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Can confirm

[–]2secret_barber 7 points8 points  (4 children)

Again, I am surprised by the general support from the sub. Where are all the regulars?

Am I misunderstanding the mindset of red-pillers.

I feel we all are ultimately seeking balance - just the right amount of vulnerability, control, indulgence, manipulation, strength, confidence, sex, intoxication ...whatever. And this, this entire experience you've presented and executed, was completely out of balance. Your pendulum swung hard, from letting yourself be used to using other people.

In the end, I know it was wrong, morally, but I started thinking of all the cruel things that women had done to me in my life, and I didn't care if it was morally wrong anymore. I wanted to win.

The woman you lied to and fucked isn't guilty of any other women's actions, but her own. And, even if she is guilty of similar transgressions against other men, you are not justified in punishing her in their name. Furthermore, if she had been one to abuse you, the RP action would be to hard next her, not seek vengeance.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (3 children)

I agree with everything you said. From my post:

In the end, I know it was wrong, morally

The sheer amount of manipulation that I did made me feel a little sick

And if you see the end of my old thread, I do say that I don't think that what I was doing was even RP.

I know what I did was wrong, but man, I am just human. I do still feel guilty. I actually wondered if I had become a psychopath on the drive back.

the RP action would be to hard next her, not seek vengeance.

I agree. I'm hoping that at least I can use this experience, which I do know was wrong, to build up myself from here on out.

[–]2secret_barber 2 points3 points  (2 children)

psychopath

I'm glad you said it. I wanted to, but I'm not a doctor. I do think you would benefit from working through your thought process with a psychologist. I have/do.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (1 child)

We can continue this via PM instead, but I do have a point to bring up about that.

When I had depression, I realized I couldn't talk to any psychiatrist or psychologist about my problems (which were the slow realization of TRP ideals). Wouldn't they just immediately think I'm a misogynist? Trying to swallow the pill made me feel really alone, because I realized I couldn't talk to anyone about it (well, except posts on here).

[–]2secret_barber 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A professional therapist would not express judgement of any kind. They help YOU think through YOUR thoughts to help YOU determine what is right for YOU. A big part of getting the most out of therapy is trusting that as a fact. My therapist is a feminine lesbian (which I only know because I google everyone I meet, not because she has told me anything about herself), but she's onboard ...at least, while she's on the clock for me.

[–]enriquex 7 points8 points  (0 children)

mirin.

intimacy really felt a lot better with my old girlfriend.

There's a reason the most popular "style" of sex at a whore house is the "girlfriend experience"

Am I misunderstanding the mindset of red-pillers, when I say most don't seem like the type to "fall in love"?

There was a good comment on here. A guy will take a bullet for a women he loves, but a women wont do it for a guy. She'll only do it for her kids. It's a different kind of love, and in the end the guy will probably fall harder for the girl if he lets himself. That's probably why red-pillers don't seem to "fall in love", it's a slippery slope and you're betting a lot on her.

But then wouldn't I want to fall in love again?

Nothing wrong with falling in love. You've just got to understand that women at 100% love will never love you as much as you love them at 100% love. Nothing to be angry over, it's just the way they are.

But yes, the sex is probably better when "in love". Why? Coz you give a shit about the person. Tricky part is not giving too many shits - and its hard because you don't really want to hurt them.

she still did not love me in the way I thought she did?

Pretty much. She loved your attention, and loved your validation. Unfortunately, she didn't love your cock and got bored. I think your issue with her was putting her on a pedestal, and probably being too available. Then all of a sudden your attention and validation was worth nothing.

Regardless, good job. Work on bettering yourself next time so you don't have to lie to get similar lays. Worlds your oyster etc etc lift more etc etc

[–]slater2j 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Dick coming out just takes practice

[–]PublicallyViewable[🍰] 3 points4 points  (4 children)

but during sex it would keep slipping out. Why is this? Does it mean something? Does it get better with practice?

Practice. Just both of you not knowing how far out to go, and going too far.

What's the deal with anal sex? They make it look like heaven in porn, but I actually didn't like it that much.

I'm not sure myself. It's something different I guess. But to each their own. At least you know

Gratz man, good to hear from ya.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (3 children)

Thanks. And thanks for your insights on my other thread as well.

[–]redpillexplainsit 1 point2 points  (2 children)

It might slip out if its not hard enough to stay straight (ie partially limp).Also probably why you couldn't cum... Anti-depressants?

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah it was hard. Dealt with depression but no anti-depressants.

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being on antidepressants does make it harder to cum, at least for me. But before I took prescription antidepressants I came less, and it took longer. Before anti-depressants: 1 hour average and probably not going to cum. After: 40 minutes average and cumming 70% of the time. Maybe it has to do with experience? idk. I've had this problem before.

[–]11NV0K3R 6 points7 points  (2 children)

This is fucking amazing. You are doing god's work son.

Ever think about going into acting? You literally pulled some fucking James Bond shit here.

Also, who cares if you lied/manipulated? The fact the girls are willing to do this should be 100% enough indicator. If they did it with you they'd do it with someone else.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You have to understand that I still do believe I acted immorally. Personally, the good thing to come out of this wasn't the sex, but the moments of clarity that followed it.

[–][deleted] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ever think about going into acting?

But actors are supposed to be good at telling made-up stories.

[–][deleted] 8 points9 points  (1 child)

i dont believe a girl you just met did ass to mouth, i call fake!

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I guess I'm flattered by your disbelief?

[–]KilluaKanmuru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're a legend.

[–]Nitrobroom 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mirin

[–]ZorbaTHut 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Is it normal for men not to be able to cum from penetration?

Same thing happened to me the first few times. Don't sweat it. Sex is pretty dang stressful until you get used to it, and stress is the orgasm-killer.

[–][deleted] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

  1. Some questions for you guys (yes, this is embarrassing). So I have a pretty average sized dick I think (5.5 inches), but during sex it would keep slipping out. Why is this? Does it mean something? Does it get better with practice?

order her to grab your dick and dry it off with her hand. she's too fucking wet. punish her for getting too wet if you like. it's like a two-fold insta-fix

  1. Is it normal for men not to be able to cum from penetration? This went on for more than an hour*, and I was getting exhausted. At the end, I told her I would facefuck her until I came but after 15 minutes of that I still wasn't coming, so she just gave me a hand job. Is this due to my frequent masturbation? *Edit: that means from when she started blowing me, to when I came, with various positions of penetrative sex and oral in the middle.

happens to me consistently. my fastest record time since swallowing the pill has been 15 min. it's a side effect of taking the pussy off the pedestal. you lost some desire

  1. I didn't give her an orgasm...was she expecting me to? I think I was pretty good at giving her oral sex, based on how she responded, but I only did that for like 5 minutes before getting tired. Honestly, the whole "treat her like a slut" thing just made me not care. I probably have to fix that right? Edit2(clarification): I'm referring to whether I need to fix the fact that I don't care about whether a hook-up orgasms or not.

correct. you can't worry about this shit. if it was a LTR, then you can spend time thinking about her pleasure. otherwise, be selfish. it's the most arousing thing you can do for her

[–]Endorsed Contributorfnordsnord 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You said: Some questions for you guys (yes, this is embarrassing). So I have a pretty average sized dick I think (5.5 inches), but during sex it would keep slipping out. Why is this? Does it mean something? Does it get better with practice?

My Response: Yes, it does. You need to shorten your thrust length. The problem will probably recur with each new partner until you get to know each other. Part of this issue is on her as well, and it just takes practice.

You asked: Is it normal for men not to be able to cum from penetration? This went on for more than an hour*, and I was getting exhausted. At the end, I told her I would facefuck her until I came but after 15 minutes of that I still wasn't coming, so she just gave me a hand job. Is this due to my frequent masturbation? *Edit: that means from when she started blowing me, to when I came, with various positions of penetrative sex and oral in the middle.

My Response: This is so common there's a name for it: delay ejaculation syndrome. Chronic masturbators often have it pretty bad. The theory is that your hand can get both a tighter grip and a faster pace than her vulva and your torso can piston. So your dick has been trained to expect more than penetrative sex can deliver. Quit fapping so much and this will go away.

You said: What's the deal with anal sex? They make it look like heaven in porn, but I actually didn't like it that much.

My Response: For most people it's better left on screen. It's erotic because it's transgressive. That is: it's naughty. Also: most women find it uncomfortable, and therefore avoid it, making it rare. People value rare experiences just because they're rare.

You said: Edit2(clarification): I'm referring to whether I need to fix the fact that I don't care about whether a hook-up orgasms or not.

My Response: You should care, if for only selfish reasons: the better sex she's getting, the more effort she will put into give you good sex. The better sex she gets, the more likely she will come back and give you more sex. And finally, the better sex she has, the more good things she will gossip to her slutty friends about, and the more potential you will have for bangs within her social circle.

[–][deleted] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You've learned more in one day than a lot of people do in years.

I can help with a few of your questions... for number 2, welcome to the dissonance between what women tell you and what they actually want. All women love being ravaged by a high status male. For number 6, don't worry about it, often the sensation of getting fucked is enough, and some girls orgasm pretty subtly so if she's as wet as you said she is she probably came buckets.

For 4. Yeah it is from frequent masturbation. It's both a blessing and a curse as I find that I enjoy a good long fuck more than I enjoy coming inside a condom, so imo it's a good thing to be mildly desensitized. Condoms also pretty much prevent penetrative orgasms for me unless she's stupidly tight.

For 5... anal isn't really anything special unless your girl is crazy into it. Some girls like the butt things more than the vag things and those it can be pretty hot.

For 3 your dick is fine. I'm the same size and it's just a matter of getting your rhythm down. Don't worry about ever being small cause I've had girls who experienced pain on penetration due to it (they were petite but its still a thing).

1 is a great move and I still make chicks put condoms on me. They love it. Get her to do it with her mouth.

Guess I hit most of them. Have fun with your next two lays, and remember that they are in fact just sluts so go fucking nuts.

[–]GC0W30 1 point2 points  (2 children)

What's the deal with anal sex? They make it look like heaven in porn, but I actually didn't like it that much.

Anal needs to be a planned activity. In porn, those chicks haven't eaten for most of a day, and have probably had an enema recently.

If a chick wasn't expecting anal or doesn't know what she's doing, maybe you get crap on the sheets, or the room winds up smelling like fart, whatever. Also, if you're not wearing a condom and she isn't prepped, you are running a very good chance of getting a UTI. As a young man, fucking someone in the ass without a condom is basically the only way you're going to ever get a UTI.

You're not alone in disliking anal. Some chicks love it, some guys love it, some girls hate it, some guys hate it. I don't HATE it, but the only reason I could imagine bothering with it again is if I'm fucking a dude or something. I had a wife for most of a decade who was down for it every night, and my current LTR basically asks for it at least once a month, and I've only fucked girls in the ass like 6 times. [I actually DO date guys and STILL don't find it worthwhile.]

There's an art to doing it right. You have to get the amount of lube right, and you have to figure out how to properly dilate her anus. If you (or she) over-dilate, it's actually going to feel like you're fucking a stretched-out whore. Under-dilate, and you're either going to hurt your dick trying to get it in or waste so much time stabbing and failing that you get bored and lose your fucking wood.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (1 child)

Do I need to get checked for STDs if I used a condom for anal? And what does getting checked involve?

[–]GC0W30 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You used a bag, there is no cause for concern. Also, if it ever hurts when you piss, go see a doctor. When I get a UTI, the first day I have symptoms it tickles, the second it hurts.

I edited my above post for clarity.

[–]Endorsed Contributorstickfiguresk 2 points3 points  (0 children)

All this talk about why you can't cum from pen is horse shit. There's only two reasons: she's loose and you're self conscious. Tight pussy feels great the first 3-5 times and then she adjusts to your size and condoms are death after that.

Finishing the other two girls is up to you, man. I'd say keep going just because you started this and WON SO FUCKING HARD.

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[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I tried but the mods said it could cause brigading or something, and that they thought what I was saying was fake anyway.

[–]Smekiz 0 points1 point  (3 children)

This is pretty awesome actually, hope you didn't give your real name lol

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 1 point2 points  (2 children)

Nope. Just phone number and my picture.

[–]Smekiz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good man

[–]Sesa_Refum 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, we're gonna need those videos home.

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Op post video, plz

[–]2johnnight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The sheer amount of manipulation that I did made me feel a little sick.

There are three states of mind:

  1. Ignorance
  2. Realization and anger
  3. Acceptance and calm

Phase three is when your brain unplugs the connections between some memory networks and the pain center. This neurological process is what allows us to accept. There is no mystical 'acceptance'. It's just that the neurochemical response to a stimulant went down.

So, whatever shitty feelings you might have, they go away once the brain desensitizes itself. (as per wikipedia: desensitization is defined as the diminished emotional responsiveness to a negative or aversive stimulus after repeated exposure to it)

Then you will be OK with how the world works.

[–]thelotusknyte 0 points1 point  (2 children)

You might not be checking this any more, but out of curiosity, what part of this was immoral in your mind? This is not a loaded question to imply that it was or was not moral, I just want to know what was going on in your head.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (1 child)

I had felt this was immoral because I tricked the girl into this. I literally lied about everything about who I was - fake name, job, etc.

[–]thelotusknyte 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Got it. Thanks for explaining.

[–]AZTRP 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amazing first time. You went full monty. Fucking great.

Your dick will slip out less with practice, this combined with your sensitivity not existing is probably because of excessive masturbation. Knock that shit off as much as you can

Now that you've had noir film sex you're going to want to rub it out for the memories. Don't...hold off. Go fuck those other girls.

Have some fucking fun.

[–][deleted] 0 points1 point  (7 children)

Why feel guilty? She had good sex and you had sex. Winners all around.

[–]QuikZilver 2 points3 points  (1 child)

Lots of women and few men have trouble having empty casual sex. That's because they give sex too much value.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Considering I had never had sex before last night, I'd say yeah I had been giving it too much value.

[–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 1 point2 points  (4 children)

Well, she didn't orgasm, and I manipulated her. She's still expecting this VIP to take her fancy places.

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    [–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 2 points3 points  (1 child)

    Well...I mean it would take some serious mental gymnastics for me to change my view that I acted immorally.

    Maybe she did only give sex for potential money, but that potential money was a farce, one created by me.

    [–]DickieMcDick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

    I'm fucking curious, OP. How did you go about starting this lie? Hahaha

    [–]MrRIP 0 points1 point  (1 child)

    This is honestly one of the most pathetic things I've ever read online. And that's saying a lot. If TRP is about being the man you wanna be and handling things like men do. You did the complete opposite.

    Good job on losing your virginity though. I guess. It's not hard to have sex with a woman without making up a life. This is the same shit PUAs do by making up fairy tales about their lives to make themselves seem cool. Good thing you met some fucking idiots who believed u.

    If you keep slipping out you're just going too hard too fast. You don't know you're own dick yet. That's all. The more fucking you do the less it happens. It also happens more in certain positions. You just have to find your groove

    [–]Throwawayblue1414[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

    If TRP is about being the man you wanna be and handling things like men do. You did the complete opposite.

    I don't deny this. As I've said I did wrong. But at the very least this experience did help me take the pussy off the pedestal. I'm hoping to be thinking a lot of my future goals these coming weeks.

    [–]MensaNominee 0 points1 point  (4 children)

    TL;DR - Beta virgin trolls TRP with grandiose stories of depraved sex.

    [–]Endorsed Contributorvandaalen 1 point2 points  (3 children)

    Who cares? 10/10 Would read again.

    [–]MensaNominee 0 points1 point  (2 children)

    Why? It's basically the text version of a slightly advanced form of softcore porn.

    [–]Endorsed Contributorvandaalen 0 points1 point  (1 child)

    So?

    [–]MensaNominee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

    Ok. Well. You and I obviously don't get off to the same things. I'm not here to judge...enjoy yourself.

    [–]AnarchyBurger101 -4 points-3 points  (1 child)

    Didn't come after an hour of screwing. At that point I'd usually reply, "Nigga you is gay!". But you said you didn't dig anal either, so, you're really screwed. Although......

    If you were one of those dudes into pegging, as in the girl is wearing a strap-on, then you could achieve your ultimate beta status, as a sex toy and ATM for some dom chick. :D

    Probably just anxiety, have an irish coffee next time, if you're under 21, smoke a joint. ;)

    The whole love thing, that's more for when you're too older to be a player and don't have the time or energy to run around. At a younger age, your head is too full of bullshit to know what to look for, and most 20s babes don't know either.