I am by no means the smartest person in the room but I do try to get the upper hand by observing the situations I find myself in. I do not know whether it is because I am done with education (for now) or because of my break up (that forced me to change a lot) but for some reason, I always have questions. Thank goodness there is the internet. This brings makes me wonder, why aren't people irl helping one another to achieve greatness but rather bring one another down? It is as if you have to have "talent" and/or "connections" first before anyone bothers helping you.
Apologies if I cannot articulate what I am thinking clearly. It just reminds me of the paradox of asking someone irl "how do I become social?". Because one asks how to be social, it shows that they are not social in the first place. This then works against them, as it makes them the "weirdo" or "outcast". Though when you do learn how to be social via books and other mediums if people irl find out, they call you "mechanical" or "manipulative". In the cases of schooling, if you get "extra" help by private tutors, some view that as cheating. Yet when you do ask classmates that know more (if they are not naive) for them to help you, they do not want to share it (unless there is a gain for them too). Also, when one would ask a teacher "will this be on the test" or "well, what is the A* example?" they will never just be direct. I recognise that perhaps it is because I did not enjoy going through the education system that makes me so critical of it. I am not against it per se, but a child/teen/adult needs to have point-by-point goals to make the most of it. I did not have that, unfortunately. Furthermore, it does not help when there are classroom politics involved. For instance, everyone has ascribed labels of stupid, smart and average. I do not know about you, but that does not make me want to learn. Isn't learning supposed to be cooperative rather than competitive? I do not know, but it just feels wrong. I understand that competition is natural but it did not make me love learning. I feel that without all the politics, class systems, gradings, and so on, I enjoy my time learning/reading about things that address the questions I have. In some ways, taking red pills (after the initial rage period) has made me enjoy life since I do not have to have the burden of Atlas upon me. If dating is somewhat similar to my dislike of the education system, it is no wonder that I have learnt to enjoy who I am and love myself.
mmm makes me think of how "chasing" is more fun than actually obtaining a girl's affection. I guess what I am trying to say is if I have to constantly compete to keep a girl's affection, what is the point? I mean sure, short-term flings are fun but then I wish nature wasn't so petty. It also reminds me of how just being human is not enough. If being human is not enough, then what is? It is fascinating how when a child begins to realise that they may not be good in the eyes of other people, how stressed out they begin to feel.
Overall, much like being out of the education system has enabled me to love learning, being out of the "relationship game" has made me less stressed. Any thoughts and comments are welcomed. I hope I made sense. I have been on the Redpill/MGTOW journey for the last year and a bit. Just thought I would post here to ask questions, thoughts and ideas. Thank you for reading and all the best.