I’ve been on TRP for close to 6 months I’d say. I’ve learned a lot, practiced a lot, built up a lot of confidence and knowledge. But I can’t hold my frame..not just around girls. Everybody, my managers at work, guys that are bigger then me and talk louder and quicker then me. For a few weeks I’ll be doing good, feeling super confident and just ultimate idgaf mode and hitting PRs in the gym, flirting with women. Sometimes I’m extremely quick with jokes and words And then it’s like I wake up one day and I forget how, forget what to say back to people and how to say things, I fucking lose it. I get quiet I lose wittiness, people start making remarks towards me assuming I’m pissed off and I’m not but I don’t even know how to respond to those type of things I’ve always been a shy person until I get to know people, and I’ve always had trouble when being put “on the spot” People have done it to me my whole life but the past few months I’ve really opened it up. But I keep going through these stages of anger and it’s like my self esteem levels just go negative. I want to end this shit I want to come out of this, I want to become the best possible me I can be. If anybody has had similar experiences any advice would be obliged.