I met this girl. She was the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen in my life. She was so quiet and shy though, at least that's what I initially thought. We talk, I try to get her to speak, but nothing is working. She laughs a little but I felt like I was going no where the whole dinner date.
Things that stuck out were her telling me that Her friend is a prostutute and she openly told me she used to escort for rich powerful men who bought her her current apartment. Also that she talks to her friend about best ways to masterbate. I was kind of shocked inside but kept my cool.
Anyways, it's super dark outside and we're in front of a harbour with few people around us. During the dinner date she kept telling me her childhood was fucked, her dad left her and her mom hates her. Anyways, I kept being quiet and trying to find common ground, which I didn't. I tried to kiss her sitting at the harbour twice and nothing happened. She asked me "If I don't take you back home tonight , will you be upset? I told her no, and that I don't like fucking women on the first date anyways". I think it was definitely a shit test.
During our time at the harbour she said she likes arrogant and cold men. That's when it clicked. She was so abused as a child that she's grown a psychological attraction to her abuser. That's when I asked her coldly if she likes being chocked, she said only sexually and laughed it ogg. That's when I turned cold, grabbed her hair and had my hand across her neck. She started melting at my side. I leaned in and we started kissing while I talked to her about how she needs a man to break her, and how shell find pleasure being in pain, how shell enjoy being treated like a pile of trasg. How she's meant to be miserable as another man's property and she couldn't even utter words, she just said "yes".. I don't know what to make of any of this. In the end she said she needs to leave, but it wasn't a very nice exit. She just got up and started walking. It's as though I've seen right through her and she despised it. She said she likes arrogant so I slapped her ass before leaving and walked the other way without saying a word.
I don't know what to make of ANY of this!!! What the fuvk! What do I do?