So, this posting is me sharing my story.I'd like to thank anyone reading in advance, as a lot of this might still be blue pilled mumbo jambo but I'm working on it.Also I won't elaborate on too many things, only some.
So, I am 30 years old. Few male friends, best friend is as blue pilled as I was.
Grew up without a fatherfigure and a very strong minded, but kind hearted mother.I was overweight since the day my dad left (8 years) and just barely got through school until my mom sent me to a clinic to loose weight, after which I did a 180. Lost the weight, startet a job at a construction company (side job next to school) and basically lifted for hours a day sorting stuff.
It was good. Then I got involved with a girl. Blu-pilled conditioning combined with my confidence made me an attractive beta (is there even such a thing in the end?) and I got involved in a LTR-like thing without sex since we were both young (17 at the time) and didn't want to jeopardize anything.In hindsight now I know what's wrong at this idea, us both being hormonal teenagers. Duh.She was a 9/10 but definetly crazy as after we had a first real intimate moment , I moved away (not really far though, 30 minutes with a car, just grabed my balls the night before) and she cut all contact and even got into an eating disorder, followed by a clinic.
I did not pursue her at that point, though I went to visit her once.
Then my mom got sick and needs care (to this day).
But I also fucked myself up again at this point. I gained weight again, much more so than before. I started university but the very few tries I made with women were shut down by me being extremly beta and weak.
So fast forward to last November.
Me, second to last semester at university, 29 years old, still a virgin and still living at his moms.I got to a point where I said to myself that I will not "become a wizard" (Internet's term for a 30 year old virgin) so after getting back from a business trip I just grabed my money and called a hooker.
That was my red pill.
I had sex on friday. I cried all through saturday and sunday (almost literally). On monday I changed my diet drastically (to healthy).Since that day I lost 100lbs and still have 100lbs to go. Yes, I was over 400lbs.I found you guys a month while searching online and started reading/hearing all the books. So far I only finished "The rational male" and I am just about to start how to find friends and influence people as I seriously lack any social skills in that regard. Will most likely follow that by 48 rules of power as I get pushed around all to often (though by now I recognise it as happening at some point).
I feel kinda lost at sea but I can see the harbor. I just need to learn to paddle, to get there.
So, whilst this sub helps me tremendously, I still feel like asking you guys wether you've experienced something similar / the same?