I'm 21, my last LTR of 4 years ended 1 year ago.
I got used to not looking at girls anymore, she was my special snowflake and I turned myself into a sexless young man, for the purpose of being a good boyfriend (I was sooo wrong, and the sex wasn't good).
Now that I'm free to look for ONS or plates, I never close.
I really enjoy the game of flirting, I know that I have a lot of opportunities to escalate without the risk of rejection, but instead of that I just stay where I am. It's like I prefer being "friend" and playing with a girl emotionally than having sex. I want the intimacy but not the sex, and I feel wrong about that.
I stopped porn/masturbation but it's not enough.
Have you ever heard about a similar story ?