I've been hooked on porn since I was about 12. For the first time in a long time I am putting that addiction into remission. It MUST happen - nothing disappoints like pulling fresh young ass and not being able to get hard because she can't compete with 5000 pornhub tabs.
The hormonal / sexual changes of abstaining from porn are.. intense. Within 3-5 days I literally can't think about anything other than pussy. My body feels fantastic and my lifts get better but my brain just repeats on a loop. Worse, rejection and the inability to nut on my terms / when I need it spirals emotionally and I very quickly end up fighting ridiculous urges to fap.
Now I'm fortunate enough to be back in the saddle for the most part.. two plates and doing the Lord's work every time I go out.
But what OTHER things can I do to channel this energy? To learn to hold onto it and balance the tension without my entire world being about the next nut? And yet not waste it by fapping
PS I already lift and meditate