I used to be the typical sexually liberated feminist who later realized she was getting the short end of the stick no matter how hard she tried to lock down men. I thought that men would be more attracted to a woman who was sexually unapologetic. Someone who is great in the sack and won't be a nag if he didn't give her attention.
I was the strong feminist girl who was going to get a high powered career before even thinking of marriage. Growing old alone was an option too. It was when I started reading this blog by Renee (http://www.thefemininewoman.com) did I learn more about my true nature as a woman. I listened to my heart, the true woman in me, and I could feel her calling, begging me to stop what I was doing.
I kept nodding at all the points that Renee discussed in her blog. That women are denying themselves the happiness they're looking for by chasing their career, material things, sexual liberation, and all that. She was right. I tried to apply my newly learned lessons to my relationship at that time. I did all the household work. I was more expressive of my emotions. While still maintaining independence working two jobs. This narcissist I was with took advantage of me. I thought that by changing the way I behaved, he would be inspired to change too. But there's no hope when it comes to these people because even they cannot see through their own bullshit.
I finally ended the highly toxic relationship after seven grueling months before I met my true equal. My alpha. My soulmate. The man who I know will protect me and provide for our future family.
The previous relationship damaged me but not so much that it kept me from opening my heart to this new man. He was everything I had been looking for and if not without my knowledge on the red pill and true femininity, I wouldn't have been ready to handle a man such as him.
I make him happy, and he makes me happy. Sometimes, I will purposely act all cute around him and let him chase me around the room because it's exciting. It gives us both the andrenaline rush you rarely see in most couples these days where the woman is so uptight and the man is too afraid to approach her for fear of her wrath.
I donno. Maybe it's just me but there are too many more women in the society that I live in who are still asleep and enjoying the feminist dream. I want to help them realize what I realized. I cannot count with my toes and fingers alone the number of men I have slept with. I thought it liberated me to sleep with men without feeling any remorse but in the recent years, it has only made me feel shitty.
Even though I am happy in my relationship right now, I suffer from the choices I have made in the past. I have difficulties creating a bond with my partner and sometimes I feel like I am a fraud when I'm being affectionate to him. I know that I really do love him but I doubt my emotions sometimes. I recently discovered that it's probably my low oxytocin levels because of the many men I have slept with in the past. I felt bad but there's no use dwelling in the past. The only way to repair it is to increase oxytocin levels which I found out can be achieved through hugging, kissing, expressing your emotions. Basically things that you would do to express affection to your partner.
I am very happy with where I am right now. I cannot believe a simple woman like me would be able to ignite such a huge change in the man of my dreams, who once had a dark past too and sometimes, continues to have a dark outlook in life. He worships me, and I submit to him. What an amazing thing we women can achieve if we just surrender.
Ladies, if you are looking for true love, you won't find it through a hook up or a friends with benefits arrangement though that have worked for some. I am saying. We are a rare breed. Many men have lost hope in women because of the man hating culture that the feminist movement has created. Don't be one of those women who will insult him, embarrass him in front of his friends, or backbite him to your girlfriends.
Remember to respect him. It's really that simple. Men just want to be respected. You are both in the same team. How would you treat someone who is in your team for life? With love and respect.
It's hard for a man to look for a real woman these days. By being the exception, you might just be the catalyst for him to becoming the man he needs to be. I never believed in soulmates before. Now I do.