He was killed over the weekend in a boating accident. I'm sorry for this not really being red pill but I've really grown to appreciate this community and it'd be good to have your support.
I feel so lost and scared. He was my whole world. There was never anything officially said but it was understood that we were going to be together for the rest of our lives. Things were going so great too, we were just starting to really build our life together and we had so many things we wanted to do together. He was so happy and excited for the future.
I don't feel like doing anything because it's all stuff we did together and it's not the same without him. Even all my other friends were always more fun with him. He was my very best friend, and the closest relationship I've ever had with anyone. We would stay up all night just talking and no matter what was wrong, he always made me feel like everything would be ok. Just the sight of him made me so happy, and we had such an understanding. We always knew what the other was talking about with just a few words and could laugh together about things we had just overheard.
I really have no direction or goals now. All my plans were centered around being with him. I don't want anything now.
He would have been the only person who could have helped me deal with this grief, but he's the one I'm grieving for instead. I miss him so much. Everything reminds me of him and sometimes I still can't believe I'll never see his mischievous smile again.