I'm not sure if it's female nature or perhaps I might have a fetish or something.
I've had relationships where the ex boyfriend told me to "grow up" and stop acting like a child. However the second I take matters into my own hands, and he starts praising me for my success or for my responsibility or maturity, I start to lack sexual attraction for him. The second I act like an "adult" (being serious), I am immediately unhappy.
It's like I NEED to be dependent on him (emotionally) and show my immature childish side in order to have sexual attraction. I NEED to act giggly and bubbly and "ADHD" in order to feel happy and feel good but apparently it's "childish." So then I act like a "proper adult" and I start to have no attraction or low libido.
Is it just being a woman? Is it biological? Is it just me?