Hello everyone! :) I've been lurking here for about 6 months, and it's been an enlightening experience. I was directed to this community after I became very interested in Jordan Peterson's work - which was also when I was forced to reevaluate a lot of my nonsensical and ill-informed beliefs about the world.
So, a little about me, I'm 24 years old, have a full time job, live independently, am in shape, and take care of my appearance. I would say I'm a smiley and warm person, or at least I try to be - most of the time.
However, I'm also 2 years and 2 months sober from drugs and alcohol - and have been in nun-mode throughout this period. I am an active member of AA, and unfortunately, I have a high N-count (in the 20's).
When I was 6 years old, my mother died and my father subsequently went from being consumed by grief to having a long string of girlfriends, a new marriage and a divorce. It's not his fault I've ended up where I am - I made a lot of choices to my detriment along the way, but I started heavily drinking at 12/13 and it took me to some dark places.
When things got very bad at 22, I got sober - and here I am.
I've been in therapy for the past year, and in therapy with my father for the past few months to try and repair some of the damage, and face up to the grief of my mum's death (which I've never really dealt with).
Having never had a consistent and reliable female role model, you ladies have provided me with a strong and powerful light to aim at, and for that, I'm very grateful.
I still don't plan on dating for at least another 6 months, as I've got attachment issues to work through, but I will continue to try and implement what I've learnt here in my day-to-day interactions with men, and I will definitely be fully embracing the RPW way of dating when I do make it back out there (currently a terrifying prospect).
I know I could open my own airport with the amount of bagging I'm lugging, but all I can do is continue to try and grow, and learn from my mistakes - and given the amount of them, there's been a lot of lessons!
One thing I've been interested in recently are female archetypes - I've just read this book about male archetypes and the shadow self, which might be of interest to you guys -
Any reading recommendations you have - please do let me know, and thanks again.