Tonight I tried an experiment. After breaking up with a girl 4 months ago and experiencing a re-contact oneitis (my bad) I was really down in the dumps. I asked a girl out and got ignored / shut down via text so out of options and at the beginning of an RP journey, the anxiety and oneitis hit me hard.
Then I tried an experiment tonight. They say one of the best ways to get over a breakup of any kind, amicable or not, is to experience a new woman. So I did, a prostitute. I made sure to screen respondents to my ad for topless oral.
I am by no means green in the prostitute / john game. Years ago as a sexless beta I had what amounted to a bargain-bin level sugarbaby arrangement with a girl and countless other one-bang experiences. I only ever fucked the sugarbaby after many meetups for just blowjobs. All my meetings were for topless blowjobs. The sugarbaby ended up getting some dude to rough me up and stole my money.
With the knowledge of how it all works I went over tonight wondering if the experience of a new woman would help at all with my waves of oneitis and obsessive thoughts. It did. I feel like the experience in itself created some neural pathways that built on top of the existing ones the oneitis relationship created. I am a lot clearer and now more determined than ever to get active rather than moping and obsessing over the past.
I don't advocate prostitution as a shortcut to getting laid for blue pilled men. It's tempting, but just ask yourself if you want to feel the excitement of conquering a woman for real. I do, and that's why I won't be purchasing prostitutes anymore. I know where that addiction leads and it's just a waste of money.
Instead I'll be focusing more energy on reading Rollo's books and conquering my approach fear.
tl;dr Visiting a prostitute helped me deal with waves of oneitis anxiety and obsessive thoughts.