Guys I honestly can’t get over my ex, we were together a bit over 2 years. The relationship was awful at times, but we had more great times. She was the first person I ever really felt close with, and it was consistently the best sex I’ve ever had. She was a very nurturing girlfriend with a really good heart. And we went through a lot together. We broke up in April and at first I was happy, I was tired of the constant arguing and felt like I needed to close that chapter in my life. I applied the no contact rule and that was that. In June, she began texting me and I began replying. She made it seem as if she really missed me, without saying that she wanted me back, I shut that shit down and told her not to text me because we both needed to move on. I felt like I was almost at the point of having moved on. In August I broke, and I texted her asking how she was doing. She told me she was doing “better than ever” and this time around she shut me down and asked me not to contact her. I told her “ok” and haven’t talked to her since. However, I still think about her all the time and miss her and it’s been half a year now, I know this can’t be healthy. Last week out of the blue she sent me a friend request on Facebook and I accepted (dumb I know). I crept on her profile and looked at all the pictures she’s posted. It appears everything in her life has gotten better since the breakup, she looks better, she’s working her dream job (she was getting interviewed for it when we broke up), she bought a new car, and she’s made a lot of new friends, most of them guys, guys she works with, guys who tag her in shit and comment on her pictures a lot. My life may appear a bit better too, I’ve been a lot more disciplined at the gym and also did my first steroid cycle so I’ve gained some noticeable muscle mass, I got a good raise and make an extra 5k a year and I do go out on weekends with my friends. However I’m not happy, I feel like a little beta bitch, I can’t stop thinking about her and missing her. I’ve fucked 3 girls since we broke up, 2 from tinder and 1 that I went to hs with that I ran into while bar hopping. But honestly none of those did anything for me besides a quick nut. Please help, I don’t want to feel this way, I feel pathetic. Going to the gym, going out with my friends, fucking another girl, it’s all great and gets my mind off of her, but it’s all temporary relief, because when I’m bored or just have a moment laying in bed, one way or another I start thinking about her. When we first got together, she was fresh off a breakup and after hearing her relationship history, I kind of figured she was one of those girls that needs to be with somebody and can’t stay single, so I’m pretty sure she’s been fucked and dated a few guys since we broke up. I want to stop caring about her, but part of me still wants her back. Please help. Also, her birthday is this week and I’m wondering if this has anything to do with her adding me on fb out of the blue.