TLDR; Got off the red pill and sorted out my shit through therapy an other things. Now I'm happy and not depressed.
For those who want to read, any advice at the end would be awesome.
After being a lurker and solid reader of the pill for a few years, one day I just stopped reading.
In the past 5 years I've gone through clinical depression, almost landed myself in jail for dealing, lived overseas for 6 months and had a huge career change.
Now last week I came back to Reddit and the pill to check in and its quarantined?! What the fuck guys!
Anyway, what's happened in the 6 month absence.
First, I reached a point where I realised It was definitely time to get off my ass and start living.
Whilst the pill has been great to me and and the knowledge has helped me deal with a lot. I had reached the glass ceiling.
We are communal people, us men work best in groups. I had always tried to sort out my shit on my own.
I've now started seeing a psychologist, openly talked about my social problems and life problems with a very close friend and an old man I had working for me who has now become a mentor/father figure.
I've massively been listening to the Beige Phillip Show by Dante Nero.
This is a great extension of where Patrice O'Neal left off when he died .. Rest In Pimp.
Dante is insanely tuned in to what goes on between men and women and knows more than anyone how to be a man in this society and your role of as a man with women and in a relationship.
If you're not listening, you should be.
Also started dabbling in a few Buddhism teachings from a monk in the past week. Side note, although very interesting.
Picked up my fashion. I've always been in the gym (oly lifting now and before that for years I've done Crossfit, marathon running and bodybuilding before that) I'm 6"4 and not a bad sort, so people say 😉
No radical fashion trends or changes, just general clothes that fit well and don't look tacky. It's amazing how a good tee, jeans and boots which are all simple things but wearing these that fit your figure well and you get the colours right it works wonders.
What's happened since.
Seeing the psych and talking to people has helped incredibly. I'm now more open, massively happier and I'm starting to be myself properly rather than trying to be the guy I thought everyone else wanted.
What do they say? Just be yourself.
What I've realised that means is live for you and not others, you aren't going to get along with or be mates with everyone.
Not everyone is going to like you and you them. Realising that and being ok with that has helped my interactions with people immensely. I'm more relaxed and way more confident as I'm not trying to please.
Success... I've barely been trying and they keep coming to me and the amount of sex I get has gone through the roof (humble not so humble brag I know)
I'm slowly realising who I am and what I value in people and for myself. When I meet girls this has made me so much more calm in interacting and flirting. This as well has helped me with dealing with family, friends band general people in every day life.
I'm the happiest I've ever been in my short life (27M) and I'm at a very interesting and exciting period where I'm finding my value and myself.
As Dante Nero says 'If it's broke, fix it'
No truer words.
Long post thanks for reading.
If any of you brothers have any advice on how I could keep this going,
Advise and criticise away!!