Tl;Dr I'm lazy and will use monk mode to overcome it.

You can check my post history to see how I discovered trp and my background pre-rp. Since swallowing I have

• increased partner count from 3 to 8.

• stopped smoking pot, going on 6 months

• stopped giving fucks, no seeking validation. Basically I've shut the fuck up, asking leading questions only and only providing anecdote once they are finished speaking. Result - promotion at work, lots of validation from men and women even though I don't need it.

In spite of all this I have failed spectacularly in other areas. I have stopped lifting, got minor oneitis for a girl who I thought was special cuz she wanted to take it slow (turned out she was lez), and have stopped being productive in my free time, choosing to fap/watch YouTube/play vidya instead of hitting the gym and starting a huge project I really want to do but am intimidated by the work and potential of failure. I also haven't gone out in months, "saving my money".

I've seen some really high quality posts lately, fr's of men challenging themselves and rising from just swallowing to an active rp lifestyle. This is what I want. I want to wake up early and work out, eat healthy meals I cooked myself, and wear good clothes. I want to have projects and investments. I want to not only stoic and indifferent, but also charasmatic and inspirational. I want to take my life to the next level.

To do this I am entering my first monk mode. The concept scares the hell out of me tbh, denial is definitely not a buzzword in my vocabulary. But if not now, when? I have an opportunity to kick my life into high gear right now and yes its scary but its also extremely exciting. I can do this.

• internet fuckery limited to an hour a day. This includes YouTube, red dit, and twitch.

• no vidya. I'm cutting that shit cold turkey. This one's gonna be a bitch.

• nofap for 5 days at a time to get into natural t cycle.

• reread the sidebar, and rp books from my kindle app

• lift 5 times a week in the mornings before work from 6:00 - 6:30. Buy and read starting strength.

• go out on saturdays, practice night approach and social graces.

• start a diary, and a rp archive of especially poignant material

• outline and procure materials for my project.

• get a 3 new complete outfits for christmas

I will update periodically as successes and failures come my way. Mm will be over February 1st. Really thankful I found trip and excited about the next step in my journey.