This is my first field report ever, but something funny happened last night that I wanted to share it with you ladies.

First little bit background about us. We met last summer playing pokemon in the same group. I know it sounds funny but I could spent hours telling how much easier it was to get to know each other through walking together around the city than sitting on awkward coffee dates.

We bonded pretty quickly and became official almost immediately. We have met both our parents and siblings, and we all get along really nice.

This month, however, has been and is going to be very rough. I have a lot of things going on at work and I need to be away practically half of the month for different business trips. At the end of the month he needs to go back to army, as in our culture, those who have been in the army go back after a couple of years for short practise period. On top of that, he has entrance exam for university of applied sciences next week, so he has been studying for that.

So, my SO and I have been lately having sleepovers at each others houses, usually I'm at his place because it's bigger and nicer than mine. Last night we came to his apartment from her sisters graduation party. I would have wanted to cuddle first and then go to sleep together. He, however, wanted to play computer games with his friends.

At first, I felt little neglected and stressed. We hadn't had much time together this week and I knew I was leaving for a week long business trip next week. So after I had tried to persuade him to snuggle with me and he hadn't, I sulked.

I know how ridiculous that sounds now, bit I guess my hamster went overboard with all the stress I'm having these days and I would have loved little closeness.

Guess what he did? He laughed at me, lmao. Not in mean way, more like surprised that I actually am sulking about it. So, I told him that he can play but I'm going to read and then sleep. I went to bedroom, still sulking.

Then I opened our lovely sub, and I don't even remember which posts I was reading when suddenly it hit me just how stupid I was being. If I have stress, then he must have it too, he's the one having the exam next week and going back to army for God's sake. So if he wants to unwind with his friends playing couple games, he's hardly neglecting me.

So I went back to him, and he was all I thought you were sleeping already. And then I apologised for being silly. And he laughed again at me, but this time I was laughing as well. And then I knew, he was someone I need to have in my life. He didn't cater to my wishes but he also refused to make a big deal out of it.

I also know, that I have still long way to go, but at least I am learning. Before I would have been in other subs asking why my bf is ignoring me (okay, never actually done that but still) now I actually had the sense to recognise what was going on and it was all me, not him.