I will start by telling you a bit about myself. I am a twenty-two year old female, currently in a relationship with a twenty-six year old male, I am on the Autism Spectrum; DSM-V High Functioning, or what would be refer to in a more ordinary way is Asperger's syndrome. I work at a restaurant and bar, recently promoted to assistant kitchen manager. On my spare time I play Magic the Gathering, single player role playing games, I make jewerly and I also do novelty cake decorating as well.

This male I am in a relationship with has Asperger's syndrome as well. I was his first time. What my more carnal desires enjoyed was his facial structure, hand size, movement, articulation and sagacity. What my more rational side enjoyed was he has goals and stability. He is masculine in the ways that I enjoy.

I found r/RedPillWives because it was cross-posted on r/TheBluePill. It interested me because of where I was in my life. At first I was extremely skeptical of this subreddit, but I tried applying what I wanted from it, and it worked

I am posting this excursion of my life here, because I know from the very accepting tone and conservative tinge of this sub-reddit, I will be able to convey my thoughts, feelings and opinions here and they will be met with pragmatic replies.

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My most prominent struggle was my mental health and the procedure my brain receives information. My anxiety causes me to bottle problems I am having in relationships or with other people and I had feeble boundaries with men in my life, it was reflected horribly on me. I have a difficulty associating my emotions with events that are happening in my life, and I can be very naive and unaffected by these events. I always dated men who were abusive and insecure because that is what I knew I knew I deserved.

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I am not exceptionally exceptionally or traditional, but I recognised that I always wanted a masculine force in my life. Frequently I was a "side chick" for a man that I could only dream of having, or I was dating a man that I had no respect for just for the comfort. Blaming these men I wanted by rationalising why they were not suitable for relationships, but the I came to a conclusion: these men that I wanted had other woman lined up to date them, why should I feel entitled to have them?

The next logical step was to make myself for desirable to the opposite sex. I was completely lost on how to do this, and realised that I would need something to read, understanding material was also difficult.

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My first step was to work on my poor mental health. I went to anxiety classes, took up meditation and did yoga. These activities turned my mental health completely around and gave me new found confidence in myself. This is not what I want to emphasize in this post, however. The emphasis is going to be on the posts of this subreddit and books that helped me the most.

The posts from the "Essential RPW Posts" that had the most greatest impact

Intro to Girl Game for the Single RPW by u/BeautifulSpaceCadet

What I learned from this post is to always look my best and feel my best. It also taught me to how be assertive without coming off aggressive. It was a very cute and well written post.

Stop saying 'Sorry' if you want to say Thank You by u/tintedlipbalm

This is self-explanatory. I used to always say "sorry" about every miniscule thing and I realised that could come off as annoying. It was such a simple concept that had a huge impact on how people reacted.

There is no such thing as Perfection u/StingrayVC

This post helped me have more confidence in learning the substance of the advice.

Psychological Femininity by u/Camille11325

This post taught me the positive aspects of being feminine and was delivered in a very positive fashion. The quote at the end that fastened to my brain was "The best way to attract someone of high value is to become someone of high value".

The Books from the "Recommended Resources" that had the most greatest impact

Research was done before I decided to read the books. The two books I chose to read where "The Surrendered Single" by Susan Doyle and "Atlas Shrugged" By Ayn Rand.

The Surrendered Single

It was a very helpful self-improvement book and helped me understand all of the concepts I was learning in a clear way. It inspired me to make a mental list of qualities that I would look for in a potential boyfriend and that kept me motivated.

Atlas Shrugged

It was very difficult for me to figure out why this book was on the reading list, but I was very intrigued by it. The one thing I could link towards it was the character, Dagny Taggart. Dagny Taggart was a woman of power, who is strong and driven. Despite having these characteristics she still surrendered to someone she was attracted to. This book was easily one of my favourite fiction readings I have ever done. It would be nice if someone could please tell me more about the concepts in this book.

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I just want to say thank you to this community for helping me and thank you for taking the time to read this. I will be continually working on myself.