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So I stumbled across this sub a while back but recently I've decided to take it seriously and apply it. A little backstory: Most of my life has been depressive with bursts of mania here and there(Biolar disorder) which last year had landed me in some legal trouble, and being placed in a hospital meant to deal with violent individuals. Not getting into that, but towards the end of my stay I was literally 15 seconds away from being murdered, was left with PTSD and subsequently lost most of my social connections.   Now, within the past two or three weeks I've been lurking and reading TRP at any time I'm home and on the internet. Almost immediately after recognizing and applying what I've read I started to feel alive again. Up until then I got laid maybe once every few weeks, and had to work for it. Fast forward and it's every single day, plus 30 times more amazing than it used to be. I've been able to leave my house without being constantly paranoid and afraid, I've been assertive and not taking shit for sake of convenience or avoiding conflict. Most of all, I'm enjoying life even in the "duller" moments where I'm by myself, which used to be a real issue. My depressive episodes have been lasting no more than an hour or two where it used to be days, weeks and sometimes months. Thank you TRP, you've literally saved my life, plus made it better than it's ever been 

[–]GameboyPATH3 points4 points  (2 children) | Copy Link

towards the end of my stay I was literally 15 seconds away from being murdered, was left with PTSD and subsequently lost most of my social connections.

Jesus dude, how long ago was this? That's neither easy nor simple to just shrug off.

I'm glad that you're getting laid and all, but you need to take care of yourself in other ways, too. Are you regaining social connections? What exactly have you changed about your mindset and/or behavior?

[–]throwawayhitnrun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy Link

As it turns out you were very right, at the time of writing it had been probably 8 months. I went through a few relapse cycles since I wrote that out, and went back to lurking without an account because I didn't want to see this post. However one gift I had was the ability to strive for much more. I've been reading a lot. I read think and grow rich, several books on persuasion including cialdinis famous "Influence: the science and practice", heavily participated and still participate in mindfulness meditation, I've seen a CBT therapist which lead to discovery of Stoicism, I'm getting my career on track with flying lessons and enrolling in classes to work on cars, been reading Tony Robbins - Awaken the giant within, following this subreddit, I'm in the process of reading and implementing the Gorilla Mindset, have multiple ideas for startups including things from a novelty restaurant / café through something involving quadcopter drones that I'd rather not give away just yet. Its funny how life will move out of the way once you have that vision. I really wrote all of this to say that I appreciate that you to time to really make sure my ego inflating success became more than superficial, and to let you know that although it was originally, I've been doing great for quite a while. Seeing this post again was accidental but extremely refreshing and encouraging, showing me how far I've come. 50 pounds less in about 5 months feels awesome but I'm much more proud of the mental and spiritual (so to speak) growth. My advice to anyone reading this is that no matter how bad things may seem, there are always options and that your very worst experiences will bring out the best in you if you hang on hard enough and let it inspire your growth

[–]throwawayhitnrun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children) | Copy Link

Also it's truly crazy how at first my entire self worth was based on the frequency of pussy showing up in my bed room

You can kill a man, but you can't kill an idea.

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