First of all, sorry for my English but I want to express myself and tell how trp changed me.
A little background,I was 11 when I diagnosed with HGH(Human growth hormone) deficiency. I used to look like an 8 year old when I was in high school(for reference here is Andy Milonakis, he is 40). Besides I used to have Pectus Excavatum, my chest was like this. Now imagine a high school boy who looks like a skinny 8 year old freak(my face looks attractive btw). I was getting bullied everyday. No self esteem, no confidence, no social skills, no social life. My whole life was about porn,video games and movies. I started shooting HGH when I was 14. My look was getting back to normal. I was growing 4-5 inches in a year. When I was 19, my doctors said enough and they've stopped the treatment. I'm 5'9'' now and I look perfectly normal. When they stopped my hgh treatment I decided to have Nuss procedure (nsfl), They put a 12 inc metal bar inside my chest. Post op was painful as fuck, I couldn't breath or move. By the time I was still a video game and porn addict. Losing all hopes was freedom. My doctors said "you should stay in bed for 3 months, you won't be able to make physical activity for at least 6 months". I used my time wisely. I started learning English, read lots of book(every kind of books, fictional, non-fictional, even romantic novels), I was still lurking on reddit though, when I was hanging out /r/askreddit, I saw a thread about most hated subreddits and decided to check it. All subreddits looked familier except this one, on the front page, some of those posts were Misogynistic and comments have negative attitude. However, when I read the sidebar and the top posts, I realised that this community is about self-improvement, it's about reminding us that we are men and understand female mind. This is when my life started to change completely. 3 months of monk mode, self improvement books/articles,meditation,o social media and therapy(suprisingly most of male psychologists are red pill btw) 6 months after post-op I started lifting, I swear to god I woke up at 5 am every morning, took my supplements and hit the gym then went to my 8am classes, my chest bar was still giving me pain but no pain no gain they say. I gave all of my clothes to charity and bought new ones(thanks /r/frugalmalefashion), I quit porn cold turkey(thanks /r/pornfree) and masturbate only 1 time a week(I don't believe 90 days no fap challenges, it makes me pussy worshipper beta),started doing kegel exercises, doing yoga to correct my posture,found new hobbies(rock climbing and painting). After a year of lifting,eating paleo and learning new social skills. I finally found courage to talk with girls. I turned into a "not giving a fuck machine" we are a maggots in god's asshole anyway, who gives a fuck? I aproached girls when they were with their bf's. I got beaten, rejected, fell for oneitis or got laid. With every date or casual sex, I learned something new, I found my weaknesses and tried to fix them. I traveled 22 different countries and slept with girls from different races(thanks Couchsurfing and Tinder). the slutty Australians, snotty French girls, perfect Russian wife materials, shy Korean girl. Call this subreddit sick, call me sociopath or a liar neck beard. I'm studying computer science, I have 3.62 GPA, I look fit, a girl who works for P&B offered me to be a model, I have lots of friends, I climb every weekend and eat clean. Did I do all of this for girls? Nah. Maybe at first, but when you focus on yourself and start living, girls come anyways.