I discovered this sub last week, and holy s*** I’m so thankful that happened.
I’m a 19M. I’ve had previous chances with girlfriends or one night stands, but it never “happened”. I thought it was them, but it was me. I had to change my mind quickly, I’ve always been generally an anxious person and I had to do something to change my perspective, at least when it comes to women and exercise/lifting (I have dumbbells in my room that I never used).
I started reading about TRP (almost compulsively) because I knew something in my life would change, I needed the pill, and so I slowly took it, starting with the basics. The funny part is, it all started with Tinder, yeah. Got a pretty good match (probably an 8/10), 20 years old, lived nearby in the city. Started texting her (wearing a mask I had never used, if you know what I mean), didn’t get into details, lied about certain things, exaggerated certain things, and made my objective clear. That’s something I wouldn’t have done if I hadn’t discovered TRP, I would have said some different, nice things that wouldn’t have worked at all, and it wouldn’t have been the first time.
Anyways, I was pretty much clear for what I wanted for the first date. We met two days after that (last Friday) in a bar, got a bit drunk with just beers, applied everything I had learned by reading the best posts of this sub (and never changing my mind), got out of there and she inmediately started looking for a kiss, so we started kissing in the street and we ended up in my car and we started kissing like crazy this time (which I’d never done in my car). We both live with our parents, and I insisted to do at least something but she resisted until I thought “okay, fuck it, another missed chance” and took her home while I was doing jokes and she was laughing. She got off my car, threw me the equivallent of 15 dollars for the beers (Though I’d said “I wanted to pay today”) and she said “there won’t be another chance, that’s why. After all, you won’t talk to me after what happened” (nothing happened, that was the deal) So I left and I took that as a huge compliment, and it was. She texted me the other day saying “you won’t talk to me ever again?” and I felt great, like I was accomplishing what I wanted. Texting went on and on with flirting with a “I don’t care about what you say, I know what I want, and you are not the only thing I have/want” attitude, and it worked.
Told her I would look for her on Wednesday at 19:00 in the park, for an icecream, and maybe “go for a walk”. Got some condoms (that I knew I would use, for the first time in my life), went there, she paid, started walking, started kissing, and after that I took her to a motel “I’d been before” a couple of blocks away (knew where it was since I looked it up before the date). It was a whole dialogue until I got to the car, but she indirectly said “yes” and I could tell she wanted it. So I got to this motel I had never been or seen before like I was the #1 client and, as I climbed throught the stairs, I couldn’t believed what was happening to my hidden virgin self.
Sex was awesome, like holy s***. I had her naked right in front of me like it was nothing, told her to get in the top and she did everything for me. I didn’t last much, but I don’t regret it, it was just awesome. She cuddled with me and started talking to me about anything, and I was like “yeah, whatever” and that turned her on even more. Of course, I didn’t just say that. At one moment, she asked me if I had done that before (getting a girl from Tinder, going to that place) and I calmly and naturally said “Yes, what about you?” and she thought about it until she gave the same response, but we could both tell that was a lie. “You know, when you told me where you lived I knew I wanted to fuck you” she said, and I just laughed, thinking how great everything went. We even went to the shower after that, and then I got a handjob while I fingered her since I didn’t have another condom with me (now I know I need at least two the next time).
So that’s it. It worked. When I took her home, she was still thinking about me as the “not-nice, direct, CONFIDENT handsome guy who owns a car at his age and has a lot of money” (only half is true, and if you do the maths you will note I’m not confident at all and I usually have anxiety attacks when I’m alone, so yeah). I was happy about lying about my sex life in multiple ways. I wouldn’t have done that without you, people, so…
Thank you, TRP! I thought I couldn’t handle the changes the pill brought to me life, I thought a single philosophy and a bunch of comments and post weren’t enough for a 19yo to change his mind as soon as possible, but it was, and I feel great. I’m on my way to met another girl (a classmate) and I’m surely getting laid again, this is only the beginning and I hope to become a part of this like you. This is what I needed for me, and it’s just the first week.
Special thanks to Woujo, u/MAX_Fury, u/Metalgear222, u/coco5440 and… stoicism, for real. Your words have made me realize things I couldn’t have thought for years.