I was in a LTR for around 2 and a half years - good looking girl, one of those bipolar alternative feminist goth girl types - from age 17 - 20.
I was fairly blue pilled at that point and she had control over me as a result - shit got fucked up with her job and I (being the cuck that I was) said that she could focus on her mental health and I’d pay the rent and bills for a while.
This went on for over 6 months with absolutely no effort put on her behalf - we both had a fairly bad weed addiction (smoking over an ounce a week) and I had to quit because I couldn’t afford it anymore - she refused to of course. I remember her having full on breakdowns when she ran out and I’d refuse to buy her more - she dropped the bong and smashed it once and was in tears screaming at herself - absolutely insane.
I was working 7 days a week - 12 hour days on average - in a kitchen with barely any cash to spend on myself or my hobbies and this obviously had a terrible affect on my mood - I was fucking depressed, suicidal even - I honestly don’t know how or why I stayed with her. I guess I thought that she was all I had at that point of time.
Anyway - eventually one day she decided that she wanted to end it - because ‘she didn’t want me to have to look after her and wanted to focus on herself’ - fucking cop out, she wanted to slut around and not have to deal with any responsibility and I knew it.
I was left with having to figure out how I was going to break the lease at my apartment and get everything moved out - I had to pay rent until the landlord found a suitable replacement - luckily after about a month they found someone else to move in and everything was sorted - I got to keep the full bond for the apartment as repayment from her (LOL)
After I had sorted out everything and had reflected on the last few years I realised how much of a fucking waste it was. I went crazy - had money to spend for the first time in a long time - fucked every bitch I possibly could (within reason) - my count went from 5 to 15 in a month. I went to the city a lot did a lot of drugs went to fancy hotels with friends etc. just fucking enjoyed myself for once. Life was fucking good and in retrospect I’m so glad I took it all so well.
I blocked the bitch on all my social media accounts that I was aware of as soon as we broke up - out of sight out of mind. One day I get a message on tumblr (I don’t use it much so I forgot to block) from her asking how I’ve been etc - I respond saying good having fun blase blase. I wish I still had the messages but I deleted and blocked but she said something along the lines of: “I’ve been doing terrible, havent gotten a job and I’m finding it hard to keep going - you look like you’re doing really well though” and then she says something that I will never forget: “It’s funny that I broke up with you to focus on myself and I haven’t gotten anywher yet you’re doing so well for yourself and are so happy. It makes me want to kill myself”
This is when I realised how fucking evil they are. They want you to be sad. They want you to be unable to progress without them. If they see you doing better than them they will run back and try and fuck you up again.
I had her blocked on everything. My instagram is private so I didn’t know how she knew I was doing so well but then I realised I still had her bands instagram account on there - the bitch was spying the whole time.
TL;DR - IF YOU WANT THE BITCH BACK (DON’T) MOVE THE FUCK ON - FORGET ABOUT HER AND FUCKING ENJOY LIFE FOR ONCE. THERES A GOOD CHANCE THAT SHE’LL COME BACK AND IF SO YOU WILL FEEL EVEN BETTER WHEN YOURE ABLE TO TELL HER TO FUCK RIGHT OFF
I’ve been reading red pill for the past 6 months or so - figured it was time to share my experience :-)