I’ve been in a few LTRs, spun plates for a few years, and have had my fair share of ONS. I struggle to find enjoyment in Plates and ONS both socially and sexually. I derive pretty much no pleasure from condom sex (don’t know why just always been that way) and I’m wary about having unprotected sex where the power of bc is in their hands. I find these short term relationships leave me feeling pretty empty and unsatisfied. I even struggle mustering up the motivation to pursue girls for ONS or Plates because deep down I feel like the juice isn’t worth the squeeze. This has been the case regardless of how hot they are.
I do find pleasure in LTRs and longer term plates that I’m investing in a bit more than usual and vetting for LTR basically. However, there’s inherently problems with this due to the lack of abundance and all of the other usual problems that come with LTRs.
So what do I do? I’ve spent a lot of time trying to like them, but I just don’t. Should I just keep jumping from LTR to LTR knowing eventually I’ll lose frame and abundance and it will fall apart?