With all the FR's we see and even your Alpha friends, it's very easy to fall into the trap of beating yourself up for not being at the place you want to be. Some people here I bet had the expectations that they'd read RedPill and after a few weeks they'd be banging HB9's and be liked by everyone for being high SMV.
Well that's not how the world works. Change takes time, and even when you hit the goal of being your ideal self, you may not even stop the moment to realize it.
Lately I had been beating myself up for not being some uber-suave slayer, and berated myself for it. But then I realized where I was before RP a year ago:
- A fat socially anxious neckbeard with almost no social skills
Since then I have:
Against all odds from having poor grades and being made fun of school for poor grades, managed to work my ass off and get into a prestigious and respected University degree
Pretty much knocked Chron's disease into remission
And I love myself for it. Am I satisfied and now comfortable? No, I'll keep pushing forward, but don't beat yourself up for not being some idealized version of yourself.
Accept that YOU have improved. Give yourself some fucking credit and keep improving. Do NOT be too hard on yourself.