Thank TRP so much for transforming how I think about women, and life in general. It actually sparked my thoughts and made me realized that my previous beta behaviour stem from growing up in a family consist of a beta father and a domineering (alpha) mother.
A domineering mother is very controlling, and worries way too much about things that don't matter because they feel very insecure. It's in a woman's nature to want protection from man but if she has a personality that is too domineering, she ends up with a beta male. Even though she is comfortable in this state, her inner self is very insecure. So she ended up feeling anxious and wanted to control what I do. When I was little she wasn't happy about the fact that I was drawing on papers because she thought I was wasting printing papers. She had to control how I studied for school and forced me not to watch TV to relax, even though I was doing well in school on my own. She made me quit an advanced class I took because I was initially not doing well in that course (I was not doing that badly, and just needed time to improve). She would questions any decision I made that involved any bit of risk and say things to put me down, like "you cannot compete with people like that", "that is too risky". She has made me question myself constantly about my abilities and decisions. I had very little confidence growing up, and guess how well that goes when I tried to talk to girls. I always tried to seek validation from others when I try to make decisions because I never felt secure, I felt like I can never do something simply because I just love it. She also rarely recognized my achievements because she was too busy being insecure.
So of course when the time comes for me to start dating girls, I dated a domineering girlfriend, who dumped my beta ass. After reading TRP and slowly realizing how my mother was messing with my head all these years, I am trying hard to deprogram myself. This type of parenthood is destructive and I really hate her for it. For people in similar situations, please unprogram yourself from whatever childhood fears that your domineering mother instilled into you, and that would really help you get out of the beta mindset. A true man has nothing to fear, but himself.
Edit: Did not expect so many people would have the same issue and resonate with this. This proves to me that it is important to recognize this.